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Dec. 23rd, 2009

gina 2011

... a change of heart.

 So... This is gonna be weird. But I'm glad that Misti is being cool to Liz, she needs a good sister in law. Though I'm bitter that he cheated on me, because, and let's be honest, that shit hurts. But I'm glad that she's being cool. She was even cool with Liz hanging out with me. And usually current girlfriends or wives aren't cool with anyone in a family hanging out with an ex. But I want nothing to do with him, I'm absolutely no threat, and I think she knows that now. And that's good. It's an unspoken understanding.

So I guess that my first impressions of her were wrong. And I'm not one to enjoy admitting I'm wrong. But I was. And, I'm actually glad that I was wrong. 

Just wanted to share.


Jan. 21st, 2009

gina 2011

Once In A Lifetime.

I went to the inauguration in DC.

Nov. 20th, 2008

gina 2011

Writer's Block: Under the Tree

What gifts, big or small, are you hoping to find under the tree this year?
I want an iPod Touch really really bad.
My dream gift would be to have my boyfriend Steve home for the holidays. I know it won't happen. But It would be nice.

Oct. 22nd, 2008

gina 2011

Slogans for National Condom Week

I found these to be QUITE entertaining. I have no idea when National Condom Week is.

Cover your stump before you hump

Before you attack her, wrap your wacker

Don't be silly protect your willie

Before you blast her guard your bushmaster

Don't a loner cover your boner

When in doubt, shroud your sprout

You can't go wrong if you shield your dong

If you're not going to sack it, go home and wack it

If you think she's spunky cover your monkey

Before you bag her, sheath your dagger

it'll be sweeter if you wrap your peter

If you slip between thighs, be sure to condomize

To save embarrassment later, cover your 'gator'

She won't get sick if you cap your dick

If you go into heat, package your meat (personal favorite)

While you're undressing venus, dress up that penis

When you take off her pants n' blouse, suit up that trouser house

Never deck her with an unwrapped pecker

Especially in December, gift-wrap your member

Befo' da van start rockin', be sho' yo' cock gots a stockin'

Don't be a fool, vulcanize that tool

The right selection, sack that erection

Wrap it in foil before checking her oil

A crank with armor will never harm her

Don't be in a jiffy, cover your stiffy

Don't surprise her, cover your geyser. 

Aug. 31st, 2008

gina 2011

Soldiers' Poem

I will not take credit for this. I didn't write it.
But I see it a lot of places. And I like it.
Thought I'd share with you.

For all the free people that still protest, you're welcome,
We protect you and you are protected by the best.
Your voice is strong and loud, but who will fight for you?
No one standing in your crowd.

We are your fathers, brothers and sons,
Wearing the boots and carrying the guns.
We are the ones that leave all we own,
To make sure your future is carved in stone.

We are the ones who fight and die.
We might not be able to save the world, but at least we'll try.
We walked the paths to where we are at
And we want no choice other than that.

So when you rally your group to complain,
take a look in the back of your brain.
In order for that flag you love to fly,
Wars must be fought and young men must die.

We came here to fight for the ones we hold dear,
If that's not respected we'd rather stay here.
So please stop yelling and put down your signs,
And pray for those behind enemy lines.

When the conflict is over and all is well,
Be thankful that we chose to go through hell.

Jun. 25th, 2008

gina 2011


"Curiosity killed the Cat, but satisfaction brought it back."

Very few messages from Steve. Mega saddening since he's been on several times. Oh well. The few I've gotten are enough. I miss him though. A ton.

Camp was great
I'm def going to Ferris.

Jami and Steve are plotting. Driving me insane. but I know it will make me very happy. That's all I could get out of Jami.

Forever and Today

Jun. 3rd, 2008

gina 2011

A Dream is a wish a your heart makes when your asleep

"You would kill for this, just a little bit, just a little bit, you would."
I would....

I had a dream last night, or I suppose it was more like this morning. The phone rang, (my real phone) and it made my dream change. I was on the phone with Steve, talking to him, and my mom was there, she was the one that gave me the phone. And my little brother was there too he was sleeping. But me and Steve were talking, and then, it's weird and I'm not sure how it happened but he was here, or I was there. We were somewhere, together, but we were still on the phone, but I was holding him, feeling his body with my hands. And I was against his back so my hands were wrapped around his chest. And I started to play with his dog tags and I felt something on his chest, a small node, you know like the medical things, and I touched it, and he he looked back at me. And I could feel this questioning/ concerned look on my face. And he didn't give me an explanation, not even a don't worry about, nothing. He just kissed my forehead. And every concern melted away, my real heart was racing when that happened. And because of that I woke up, and poof, the dream was gone, there was no Steve, just a memory of how it felt in my dream when he kissed my forehead.  So I tried desperately to go back to sleep, so I could recapture that all over again, to feel Steve with me, to feel like he was that close. And I must say, I succeeded. This time, the place was familiar, we were at Kermit's house. And we were lying together, he was propped up against her couch and I was lying on him, like next to him. Again with the closeness. The overwhelming feeling of being protected. Being safe. Know that everything was okay, because he was there. These dreams were so amazingly real. Him and I just laid there for quite some time, and he played with my fingers and I rubbed his chest. We just laid there, basking in each other for quite a while. And then he kissed me, a real kiss, he pulled me up onto him and he kissed me. I swear to God my heart stopped for a second. God it felt soo real. And again my heart was racing, but I was far gone in the dream I didn't wake up. We kissed, for a long time, it was like being in heaven. It was heaven no doubt about it. But all good things seem to come to an end. I woke up shaking and short of breath. And incredibly sad because there I was, in my room, all alone.

I can't wait to see him again.

Forever and Today

May. 17th, 2008

gina 2011

Have you ever?

"Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?"

Steve Got a hold of me today. Of course I was sleeping. I wish I hadn't been. But the message was nice to receive. I began to cry when I read it to Jami though. that weak feeling I hate sooo much. It just flooded me. That feeling of needing someone. God that bothers me so much when I feel sooo weak, so helpless without someone. I don't want to be dependent. But at the same time I just want to curl up in Steve's arms and have him tell me everything will be okay. I want that so bad right now. I feel like I need it right now. God I want him to be home soo much. It tears me apart inside to know that he can't just come and see me, or just call me because he's bored. It kills me. Absolutely kills me.

In the same breath I don't want to hurt Jordan. I do love him. I know I do. I can see myself with him. I'm just not sure it that's what I want anymore. I wish I could start over in a sense. At least in the dating world. But then how would I know what I was feeling or how to know it was the right feeling? God this is all so confusing. I can't stand it. I just want to be with who is right for me. And I don't know who that is.

I am so confused. I suppose things happen for a reason. But I need to make sure that I am careful in September if I haven't made a choice to leave Jordan by then. I just want to know if it would be a good idea. I don't want Steve to turn me down because of his job and then leave me alone because I would have burned the bridge with Jordan. Although I feel that that bridge is slowly decaying. I just want everything to be okay.

I can't stand seeing Jordan hurt. I've never been able to handle that. I love him too much to hurt him. And I know he loves me too because he was willing willing to let me go to Steve. God that was so brave of him. At the same time though I wouldn't know if Steve would ever have me because of the nature of his job. God this kills me. All these stupid unknowns. It just drives me insane. I want to know. I want to know what I'm supposed to do, what my future holds for me.

I am done for now.
But there might be more to come.

Forever and Today

P.S. He signed his message Your Cav Trooper *melt*

May. 10th, 2008

gina 2011

Writer's Block: Scaredy cat

What animal frightens you most, and why?
Spiders absolutely terrify me. And most of my friends will kill them on the spot for me. Except one: That's Steve, because he would rather torture me with it lol. But they are freaky, they crawl, and they are gross looking. Not to mention like... all of them bite. EWWW!! I am going to have nightmares lol.